End of Senior Year

As the end of my high school career draws to a close, I think its nice to be able to look back at the pictures I got to take for my photography class.

This is a picture of my first assignment, I like this one because I think that Willow tree status are so pretty.

This spring there were beautiful flowers all over the place, this is one that was in my front yard.

These pictures are of my younger sister, it was a beautiful spring day so we went for a bike ride and had a photo shot.

This is a picture of my puppy.

I find eye so interesting.

This last picture is one of me on my 18th birthday, in this huge yard chair that I noticed in front of a car dealership.

So for a year that started out terrible I learned to appreciate my family so much more. I just want to say thank you to my sister who was not always super happy to be my model for many of my pictures, but she did it anyways.

Now it is on to bigger and better things as high school ends.

Rate?

So I have noticed that so many girls these days are always looking for the approval of guys. And honestly why should we care what guys think of us? Cause if a guy truly cares about you, they shouldn’t want you to change. They should want you for you.  

On myyearbook, so many girls ask guys to rate them. And so many times the rates are low and the girls are sad about it. Why be sad about a guy rating you low when you don’t even know them. Why do girls always want the guy that is going to want them to change who they are?

I personally don’t want a guy, I want a man. That will love me for me. That will make me feel beautiful even when I am wearing baggy clothes and no makeup. That will make me laugh when I am in a bad mood. That will tell how wonderful I am when I am feeling down. I don’t want a guy that will only care about hot I am instead of my personality. I want true love not lust.

Bicycle

Yesterday my sister and I decided to go on a 4 mile bike ride. Today I realized how bad of an idea that was now. I haven't ridden a bike in like over 6 years, since my bike got too small for me. So I told my sister that we were going to go for a bike ride again today. So while my mom, sister-in-law and niece walked, my sister rode her scooter and I rode a bike. I think that was my worst idea in a long time. My whole body is sore. But the walk/scooter ride/bike ride was quite funny because we brought my dog. My dog was snorting like she was a pig.

Before we moved here, my parents told me that they would buy me a bike. I am sad that I still haven’t gotten my bike, and I have lived her since August. I want a cute cruiser bicycle

What a fun day

 

Today was such a nice day. So in the way home from the library I asked my sister if we could do a photo shoot at the park by the creek. She said she won’t walk all the way to the park (which is 2 miles away). But I convinced her that we would ride bikes. She finally gave in. So off we went. The only thing is that she got tired really fast, and insisted on walking her bike (LAME) so it took forever to get to the park. But while we were there we got some very cute pictures. I’m so glad that I have such a cute family. Ha-ha. The weather man said that this week is going to be really nice and I hope we can take more pictures.

Stupid school

Before we moved my mom had my old school counselor call the schools in the area to find out if there was anything specific needed to do to graduate. All the schools that my counselor called said that there was no graduation project or senior project. The school that I first enrolled in didn't have a senior project, but the Cyber school counselor sent me an email and told me that I had to do a project. In the instructions for the project it said that the mid-point of the project had to be before end of first semester. But I didn’t find out about the project until about half way through the semester. So how am I supposed to turn in the mid-point paperwork for a project that I had just started? I just don’t understand. But I really hope that they will still accept my work for my project. I just want to have this project over with. It is taking forever!

So for my project I have to write a paper about what I have learned or something like that and in English I have to write a paper about a career I may like to have. Lucky for me I can use the same topic for both. The only problem is that one has to be 5 paragraphs and the other has to be 5 pages. I hope this works the way I want it to.

Speaking of classes, because states make their own curriculum I am studying the same thing in history as I did last year. So I already know most of the stuff. But this year it is going in deeper in to each topic. The sad thing is that when I go to my class on line and my teacher is talking to us I’m normally half asleep and playing a game, but I am still the only one that knows the answers to the questions. Oh and when someone else in the class says something it is usually the same kind of stupid comment you would hear in a normal class room. I was really looking forward to not having to deal with peoples stupid comments because we weren’t actually all in the same room, but no. Why don’t people think before they speak or in this case type? I am really worried about my generation. By the way things are going already I feel like it’s just going to get so much worst.   

Here I am today

So I guess I’ll tell you how I got to this point in my life. It started in March of last year when my parents told me that we would be moving during the summer. I was totally pissed about it as I had a right to be. Who wouldn’t be pissed to find out that they would be moving their senior year? My point exactly! But on that day I also learned that my great grandfather had just died. Just adding to the crap that I was learning that day. L After being mad at my parents and just about anyone else that brought up the topic of me moving, I got over it and just faced the fact that it was going to happen.

So on the last day of school knowing that I would not have to deal with my stupid math teach again, (who taught me absolutely nothing  from him all year and failing all of my test all year, oh and dealing with him playing favorites) I decided to tell him off. I know for some people that may not sound like a big deal but for me it is. I could tell all most anyone off but not a teacher. Telling a teacher off is so exhilarating. (I really don’t know why I am telling you all this but whatever) 

So I lived my final summer with my friends to the fullest I could. Having to leave behind almost everyone you know, your childhood home and the place where your favorite dog is buried is still hard to think about. The move was every stressful on me, it took almost a week to get here and I had the hiccups the whole time (so painful.) but the time we got here we had a week till school started, I expected to at least have someone I went to church with here to be in my school. But no I was wrong. Starting my senior year in a school about twice the size of the one I just left and having no friends was terrible. Two weeks into school I convinced my parents to check out a Cyber school, so they did. I told the people that I talked to in my classes that I was changing schools and that I wouldn’t be back my mom didn’t make me go again. The transfer paper work took longing than we expected and my mom stopped calling the school to say why I wasn’t there. The school sent a letter to my house to say that they were dropping me from the records. The funny thing is that I told my parents that I was going to drop out of school when we got here. And I did. Ha-ha

Now I am going to Cyber School and its working pretty well for me, the only thing I don’t like is that I have no reason to go anywhere, so I spend almost every day at home. SUCKY! I often feel now that I am no longer living in the world but that the world is just simply moving around me.( Its kinds quite a depressing feeling). So here I am today in a place that I have no one to talk too and have nowhere to go.

Just started

So I don't know where to start. I was just getting on to the internet and Google is my home page. So I clicked on MORE are the top of the page to see what there was and I found Blogger so I started one.

This blog will just be about whatever I decide to talk about. Cause I honestly don't have much going on in my life out side of my house. I know that it sounds really lame and sad. Trust me it is! Senior year and having no firends to hang out with, WORST YEAR OF MY LIFE! So I'm going to write about what ever I feel like. So if you are looking for something specific look somewhere else, sorry.